Make It Better

Make It Better- Evan & Jaron

I don't know what's happening to me

I can't remember things I used to believe

I caught myself just the other day

Stealing color from words and leaving them gray

Yeah, I've fallen down a time or two

But no one was looking so I'm not telling you

I've got to make it better, make it alright

Got to find me a ladder to reach the light

Got to move to the exit, single file line

Before the fire spreads to my head and burns my mind

It's been real, but it's time to go home

Time to change back to the clothes that I own

I could use some heavier shoes

To ground me of feelings I don't want to lose

And all this time, I never knew

That it never meant anything to you

Things haven't been going so well. Last week was a complete nightmare, and I'd like to pretend it never happened, but it replays in my head every once in awhile. This post might be a bit ambiguous cause I don't want to go into the details. 

I'm faced with the reality that something that I didn't see coming might happen sooner than I thought. The things that have been going on in my life, one being something that has affected me much more than I thought it would, has had an impact on me. 

One of my flaws is thinking that I can do much more than one should possibly handle at once. Like the time I tried to do three internships and a weekend job. I thought, "Hey, there are 24 hours in a day, I can handle it." What about everything else? It's not all about working. I've lost touch with the things I love to do, and that is a clear sign to me that I might be overworking myself. Or is that just making a sacrifice?

I started to panic about the possibility of this premature event. I started thinking irrationally at one point. My thoughts calmed down the next day, and I told myself that it might be a jab to the face, but it's NOT a knockout. It would be a road block, but the world will still go on, and there will be other chances.

My cousin's dog, Coby.